do u noe i hated dis no. 14?? all coz of something bad happened on dis date.. made my life miserable.. and guess wat.. its yest.. and dats e reason y i ended up having so much free time over here bloggin instead of hanging out.. many things run thru my head for 2 days.. i wentta walk ard my area alone in e noon.. teared enough.. sad enough.. sometimes i really think back.. shld i move on? or shld i juz hang in dere.. but.. i felt that i'm all alone.. i felt dat all e while.. i was alone.. i was so so alone.. i only had my memories.. when i wonders if u will msg me back.. my heart throbs.. my heart sunken.. coz i c no msges from u.. i've waited n waited all day n nite for it.. where r u?... i wonder... my head is full of negative thoughts.. and my tears starts to flow non-stop.. but who was dere for me... no1... i'm falling deeply in dis trap... i dun have anything to save my own life.. i dun wanna stuck in dere again..i feel like letting all out.. i have so much to say... but i bottled up instead... i'm findin myself getting more n more emotional.. thought of making myself suffer.. to ease my heart pain.. but i cant do so.. u will hate me.. but wat am i suppose to do.. wait here?? continue waiting till i die?i cant wait no more.. i'm having breakdown... i no longer can smile.. i no longer can be as happy.. i realised in my world.. my world is grey... and its always raining..

i guess.. i shld leave u.. i dunno if u will be happy..
but i hope i do so.. u will.. i cant stuck here any longer..
my heart's hurt again...

take care always-jake

with all my heart and soul given to u..
i gave u memories..
may all dis memories be with u..always..