dar dar.. how have u been over dere? study le hor.. mux study hard but oso mux rest well k.. dis few days u not online so u beta rest n slp more.. ya? hehe.. missing u alot alot lo.. yeah!! i noe my schedule le.. i 19march sat onwards holidays till 27 march sun lehx.. hehe.. i can go find u le.. MISS YOU!hehe*
:::**PLease take gd care of urself in KL while studying k? LuV U!

ohoh.. den today skipped my 1st 2 lesson wid nat to go eat breakfast.. ate hotcakes wid sausages meal but den i only ate 1 n half hotcakes n e hashbrown n sausage till now lo can.. damn hungry! den went to sch lo.. din eat.. drank orange juice.. tok abt wat happen yest.. pissed! wateva la.. *angry sia* hmm.. anyway.. i really dun lyk it when *ur fren dun even noe who actually did wat n wat n den jump to conclusion dat WE NEVA DO ANYTHING??!! ITS REALLY PISSING US OFF! REALLY! hmm..
tink i need an explaination from u lo.. aiya.. if u dun wan den its ok.. gonna tink of my dar beta.. haha.. oh.. anyway.. after sch cum out of class den E RAIN DAMN HEAVY LO.. lyk e whole sch gonna collapse anytime lehx.. haha.. den i booked a cab lo.. send cindy n FM to mrt dere.. den take cab str8 home.. Oh.. u noe wat.. I STILL KENA E STUPID RAIN!! haha.. wateva rite? *ahHHHh Chooo* nose v itchy lo.. haha.. anyway..*Luv my ger gang still even if we're havin sum misunderstanding!

*muackiez* to my dar ..
*hugz* to my dar..
*hugz* to my ger gang*

::: today de me in sch uniform ::: I STILL MISSES MY DEAR! 

::: i miss My dar so much~! gonna act cute here! ::: 

yest din slp well.. coz of my kor la.. damn idiot.. ppl wanna chat on msn oso cant.. mux go online means go online.. sad i cant even say bye to my dar lo.. idiot kor!! *bleahz* anyway.. i really appreciate wat u have done for me dar.. so sweet of u to even ask ur fren to msg me n stuff.. hehe* today morning was so so tired .. not enuff slp lo.. den went to mit nat to open stall.. sians can.. drizzling n all.. she ate kfc while i din eat la.. no appetite again.. yupz.. missing my dearie too much le..hehe* waited for ur msg for so long at last u msged me.. but u muz be very very tired lo.. so i hope u can rest k? its ok dat u cant go online later.. so long u r fine , i'm happy le..well.. today's crowd SUCKS! no crowd.. business no gd.. summore we last min den noe dat we'll be closing at 6 lo.. faints can..at least me n nat tried our very best to sell le lo.. yupz.. Xp came at abt 4+.. yupz.. candy got sumthing on.. deb still cant go off.. den we packed our stuff le den we wait for deb's ma come.. den she lectured US lo!! saying dat we din put in effort to dis project n all.. u noe wat.. dats it! i've done my part as a member n yet i have to bear SO MUCH RESPONSIBILITY U NOE? NO1 noes how anxious i am.. no1 noes how tired i am.. no1 noes how SICK i am.. even if u c me lyk dat okok de.. BUT i'm havin migraine all e WHILE!! DID I COMPLAINED?? I DIN'T! N i still continue making sales n all doing all dis craftworks till late nite 1+ 2 lehx.... WAT THE... haiz.. Y cant u guys juz appreciate wat i'm doing ?? i'm doing all dis is juz for e whole grp good lo.. pls k.. ppl.. I LOVE MY GER GANG.. but i dun hope coz of dis project we becum not gd frenz le u noe? *hugz* okok.. well, i've said all i can le.. i dun wish to tok abt all dis anymore.. spoil mood! i miss u dar.. how i wish i can fly to ur dere now to c u lehx.. to accompany u lehx... dere will be dis day de k..
*when u sick, i'll be by ur side to take gd care of u*

*i wanna be ur everything*
*i'll do my best for u*
*hugz* to my dar!
*hugz* to my ger gang!

hehe.. today is e day i wont forget de lo... only 12 plus in e morning den we erm.. ya..becum dolphin couple liaoz.. haha hehe* happy lo.. but so sad can.. coz dar gg to fly off tml morning.. summore sick worh.. aiyoh.. hope u have enuff rest k? really wann c u soon!! i'll fly to ur dere asap during my holidays k? hee.. but please promise me dat u will at least contact me thru blog or msges k? hope 2 hear more of ur voice! hehe.. missing u lyk crazy lo.. today in e morning went to mit Xueping at somerset le den go touth park.. wat a day can.. damn hot .. den summore v lil.. but later e sales was ok.. can cover 1 days rent.. haha.. lucky i pushed sales sia.. den e whole time was thinking y dar neh msg me worhx.. now i noe le.. coz dar's fone no credits le.. hmm.. sorry have to make u waste money juz to send me msges n stuff.. but i really appreciate of wat my dar do ya? *hugZ*hmm.. ohoh.. n den i went to take a cab to uncle dere.. got quite alot of ppl dere help lo.. den dis my sumhow 1st time follow dem go loyang tua peh kong lo.. woah.. so many ppl looking at us lehx.. so paiseh.. haha.. den summore v hot.. hehe.. got abit of gastric today... but i listen to dar's advice n eat.. hehe.. but i really hope dar dar can rest more k.. mux take gd care k.. summore i not dere take care of u.. so sad.. but i'm gonna miss u lo.. dats y i put ur pics in my fone so dat i'm able to c u.. even if ur not dere.. =] u noe wat ma dar?..haha.. I"M NOT GONNA TELL U!! hehe* go guess k?
but hope dat u will rem me ya? *hugZ*

**dar: take gd care of urself when ur off in e plane k? be careful k? do rem dat u still have me here! *hugz*

+ ::: + Missing You so much + ::: + 

hehe.. today morning abt 12plus .. we becum...hehe* yupz.. i becum ur dolphin princess le.. so happy lo.. but so sad dat u have to leave tml den summore u sick.. i'm so worried abt u can.. muz rest more k? muz take gd care k.. i cant be dere for u but i will go n visit u during my holidays k?
dar.. i miss u alot lehx.. e whole day was wondering y din u reply my msg... den i noe dat ur fone no credits le.. but its ok k.. was so happy dat u called to explain to me abt e matter today morning coz u scared i tink dis tink dat.. so sweet of u lo.. but very happy to hear your voice though.. hehe*
guess wat dar.. i put ur foto in my fone lehx.. so dat when i'm outside i can still tink of u.. hehe* u over dere got sneeze ma?(coz i keep thinking of u e whole day) haha.. today's business was lyk...dot dotdot lo.. coz weather very hot n summore v lil ppl dere.. aiyohz.. budden managed to make sales till we can cover our rental fee for 1 day de lo..yupz.. e whole time keep looking into my fone lo..juz to c ur pic.. haha.. my frenz all say me crazy can.. hehe* ohoh.. den my frenz say ur pic say u not bad looking lehx.. *dar ..plz dun fly up to cloud 9 hor..* hehe* haha.. i tink me damn ugly lo.. aiyohz.. haha.. dar.. pls rem dat u always have me here k no matter wat.. n

PLS take gd care of urself when u're outside k? i dun wish u to get sick so u mux be ok den u can be my guardian angel ya? u r my body guard rem?? hehe.. but of coz i hope dat we can still chat lyk dat n all even if u r away k? doing all dis.. i'm v happy le.. even juz a msg from u .. i can smile le.. but do be careful k? i'm gonna miss u alot lo..

*wat i wan for my life is to be wid e person who will love me, take care of me, gives me security , advises me, lyk how u did..

*u give me a life back.. pulling me back from e trap of love.. making me feel e love again!

*hugz*

haha.. recently been trying my best to help jass do blog lo.. actually quite nice de lehx.. den now hor lyk here wrong dere wrong.. *sorry* hee.. will do my very best for u k?haha.. alrite.. well.. today nehneh late for assembly so i decided to go 1st lo.. coz i v long neh go for assembly le.. hee.. *hope my dear girl understand k? den i met up wid cindy.. yupz.. haha.. today keep smelling sumthing not nice de lo.. only a few of us noe wat it is ya.. haha damn funny lo.. den today derrick in sch sumthing happen.. hope u r ok k? dun tink so much.. we'll always be dere for u de.. yupz! got home after sch lo.. so tired.. went online.. din c jass .. den after awhile online le.. haha.. den chat n all lo.. stupid com of mine cant receive e songs jass send to me.. *feel lyk bashing dis com sia* haha.. but at least ok la.. haha.. *happy* ohoh.. thanks alot jass.. hee.. hmm.. well tml got to prepare for e booth at orchard youth park le lo.. coz got to tend stall dere .. our entre project!.. now busy doing my accessories.. hehe.. so nice.. my classmates oso v gd.. helping us buy oso.. nice ppl!! hee.. oh.. after my booth thingy den i have to go uncle dere to help out as we gg you geng at loyang tua peh kong.. hee.. 1st time wid them to go you keng..
hee.. hope tml open stall will have gd biZ!! hee.. hope every1 will buy sumthing from us ya?.. summore for two days.. yeah!!.. so nervous! can wear own home clothes sehs.. haha.. k la..i'm done!

*wanna be dere for u when u need me.. *hehe*

*hugZ* to all my frenz!

*hugZ* to JASS n shan...

=]

alrite well.. today is e new beginning of my new life! [24/02/05] yupz.. today went to sch after my 2days MC.. feel so much beta le.. oh.. today oso dai seng put chor's birthday.. so after sch i went home to change n rest le den go uncle dere pray lo..at home dat time helped jass did her blog.. woah.. dis is my 1st time helpin ppl do blog lehx.. *(jass: u muz be honoured hor!?) yupz hehe.. i tink i found 1 which is not bad de for u lo.. okok den.. b4 dat when to jing ma dere to eat n stuff.. yupz.. den got ask ah peh cum up oso.. hmm.. not a bad day after all.. monkey god give me 2 tao.. den ah peh give 2 eggs.. n 1 stalk of banana.. haha.. so nice hor they treat me n my fam.. hehe~! ...hmm.. well.. i read a book today saying dis year all tigers having tao hua yun sia.. haha.. no wonder.... scary lehx.. suddenly every1 pop out!! haha.. k la.. nice day for me..

*Neva accept sum1 who still tink of her/his ex..
*neva fall for sum1 who tinks dat he/she is the 'only' one for u!
*neva forget ur good memories of u n ur ex [happiest moments]!
as u can learn from ur past experience..

** well for me now.. tink i gonna slowly find my love le la.. damn scary after so many ppl suddenly pop out!!

**for JASS: erm.. ya.. all e best for u k.. *hugZ* take gd care always.. very happy to noe u after all!! rem dat u always have me!! mis ya!

*ger gang: thanks for ur concerns girls.. love u guys!

oh well.. today is yuan xiao jie.. Happy Chinese V day to all my frenz! haha.. today dunno y v happy too.. woah.. went to mit jerry at bugis den we go pray lo.. SO CROWDED!! haha.. cant touch any praying stuff coz ehx i got ...ya lo.. haha.. den went to walk ard lo.. bought ebase top n my eye liner.. a necklace.. a watch from bugis street.. hee!.. went to arcade wid him to play games.. woah.. vent all my anger at e machine.. so fun can! feel so much beta.. of coz talking to u online makes me feel beta too! hee* okok.. den ermss.. where was i?.. ohoh.. yupz.. den jing say cuming to my ma shop.. so in e end went to my ma shop wait for her lo.. den shan called.. den shan cum down too.. haha.. we were talking nonsense lo can.. joking wid my ma n stuff.. n SHAN!! i've neva noe dat u watch SOOOOOoo many hongkong show de lo.. woah.. my ma now aim u liaoz.. haha! alamak.. shan: u say de correct lo.. how shit lo!! 1st is ... now cum e 2nd 1... den 3rd 1... alamak.. haha.. shit liaoz.. faints* dunno how to handle.. haha.. i wann faints liaoz.. but thanks dolphin prince/jass ...hehe~! ohoh.. den we at my ma shop dere play poker n stuff after eating at hawker.. yupz.. shan went home after dat.. den my ma fetch jing n me home lo.. yupz..
haiz.. jia lats liaoz.. y dis kinda thing happen huh.. tell me lehx.. is it gd or bad huh? .. haha.. faints.. k la.. tml got sch sia.. sianz.. tml still gg to uncle dere pray.. haha.. alamak.. my head gonna be big liaoz.. alamak.. y of all sudden.. again.. haha... WAHAHAHAHAHHA.. dis is e starting joke of my new life manZ! well.. haha.. damn funny!!

y recently i got to cry over all again! tot i have been trying to forget u.. but y... even today i'm still crying over u.. it hurts me..

today in e morning went to mit jing pei her go hospital wid her.. dis girl got to go dere agian on march for her operation.. worried abt her sia.. okok.. den after dat we went to e polyclinis beside e hospital to go c doc for my cramps n migraines.. jing suddenly called her fren den she asked alot of things.. she seems to noe who she att to.. yupz.. its correct! its her.. my heart stopped for once.. cant do anything..she told me she loves u.. i'm happy to hear dat.. but deep in my heart.. *hurts* den i cried.. but no motives.. u both seems v happy together.. told me dat u both noe each other quite long ago n dat guys recently talked again.. den att.. haiz.. happy to hear dat.. den u msged me asked me y i col ur gf for? wat did i told her?.. its e fact dat i only bless u two.. dats all.. nothing much.. haiz.. ShrugZ! *argh*.. my cramps making me weak lo.. shrugS*
haiz.. suppose to go watch e free movie de.. end up go k box sing at tamp de.. cried n sing sing n cried.. esp when jing sang e song 'sorry'.. rem dat u eva sing dat to me.. if eva a person sing dat to me again, i'll 'love' e person! Awww... shrugZ again.. wateva la me.. sians sia.. cramp.. den tml how i go pray sia.. shrugz again.. feeling so moody now.. acting as if i'm fine.. *its so ..wateva dat is* argh*

*hurts me..kill me.. tore my heart apart.. U Juz did it!*

its been 1 week we neva contact le.. how have u been? hope u are well lo.. be happy k? i juz hope e best for u.. yupz..
*breathe in deeply ... &..... Out* haiz.. alritie.. i tink i beta stop thinking so much le la.. if not my tears will come down again.. *breathe in again... & out* hmm... okok... well.. last nite din slp well.. coz think of u lo.. missing u.. but oso hope u will anything can contact me lo.. if u have problem.. will be dere for u lo.. coz i noe rite now.. i cant be dere for u.. all i hope is dat when u need sum1 to talk to.. i mayb of help.. yupz.. yupz.. blessings for u! yupz..

*juz wanna wipe of ur tears when u cry..
wanna be dere for u when u're sad..
as i've eva promised u b4, when one of us found sum1 new,
e other pary will give blessings..
n dats wat i wanna do..
my shoulder will always be reserved juz for u to lean..
so.. i hope no matter wat has happen.. i wan u to noe i'll be dere.. for u!

alrite.. tues not gg to sch coz jing have to go hospital check time n date for operations n stuff.. on sunday she asked me n my fam to go eat at jings ma dere.. she cooked food n stuff.. uncle dey al was dere.. but e missing person is u.. okie.. *hmmmmm* i oso hope dat jing will be alrite after so many operations.. tues onwards.. she will be at hospital liaoz.. really worried bout her.. haiz.. hope ah peh will help too.. Oh... nat n chris patched back after 1 week.. Very very happy for them! wish u guys lucks n blessings from me k?.. recently prayed alot.. n prayed for u n my frenz.. n myself n my family.. went to temples la.. n stuff.. but will still continue praying de lo.. yupz.. i juz wan every one ard me to be happy .. including u.. U r a special person to me.. yupz.. Cindy was sad too coz of her ex.. haiz.. y her ex treat her as a jinx?.. dun dare to even touch her now coz he scared she will bring him bad luck.. y he believe till lyk dat.. cindy said dat she wont eva bother abt him.. she dun care.. but i believe its her hatred covering her! girl: dun let ur hatred cover u .. U will feel worse! lyk rite now.. i've forgive wat u did to me.. n i on my way to forget abt those unhappy things happen b4.. thanks to pauline in telling me how to forgive n forget! luv u Cousin!

So ppl ard me n e special sum1: Pls be happy.. =] *smile*

*hugz* n love U guys!

i dunno y i have been feeling so sad for.. mayb coz i still love u.. faded e love abit but its still dere.. ur face.. ur touch is still dere.. tink of when u sayang me everywhere we go n stuff.. i noe.. i muz stop all this le.. coz u neva eva returning to my side again.. sw ur frenster nick changed n ur msg for me changed too.. dunno if u r happy outside wif ur love one not.. but hope u r.. i really do.. although i'm so jealous n so wanting u to cume back to me.. i'm even willing to change for u.. really do..even if u gonna tell me ur heart is wid sum1 else.. i still hope u will come back.. y u dislikes me so much? i noe i v fan on dat day.. i keep askin dis n dat.. its all coz of my jealousy.. i cant help it.. do u noe dat i was so sad when i can imagine u n her being so sweet together? .. how i wish i can be wid u rite now.. hugging titely.. holding hands.. looking at lasers at suntec.. sending sweet msges.. buying things for each other.. its all in my head.. i only can give u now.. is my blessing! my blessing for u hoping dat u will be happy wid her.. (i dun hope dat u will dislike me even further) its juz me.. mayb i really need u so much but i noe u need her more.. i'm sorry for all e things i've eva done b4 to hurt u n oso coz of my temper.. i've learn my lesson well dis time round n i'll neva do it again! i swear.. neva eva do it!
from e bottom of my heart: I wanna U to be Happy AlwAys!
(even if u not coming back to me... i'll still wish u daT)

=]

haha.. k la.. on fri, i went to jing's ma dere to eat n so on after sch.. den i acc them go home change.. woah.. tell u lo.. dey got 2 big dogs 2 small 1.. so cute can.. haha.. den dey keep smelling me.. hehe! den we went to uncle dere pray.. kai jin shen.. well.. quite ok though.. den went down to e kopitiam to drink water lo.. but was kinda sad of wat ah peh said to me.. he knows everything.. yupz.. dats all for dat day.. sat lehx is dat me jing n ah soon went to pulau ubin pray lo.. went to abt 4 temples to pray..kinda fun lo.. summore i enjoy praying de.. its gd for me n my love ones..hee!.. okok.. den after everything le we went back 2 s'pore den went to jing's ma dere to eat nasi lemak.. v nice de bought frm changi village.. yupz.. den after dat went home to change to mit nat..gg bugis lo.. haha.. she mittin 2 guys oso.. but v funny lo.. dey weird weird de.. anyway.. we walk ard everywhere of bugis den we sat down n talk at bugis street new food court..yupz.. den we're laffing at sumthings la. only girl n me knows de la.. hurhur*.. we're lyk matchmaking sum ppl wid 1 of us lo.. n blarblarblar.. haha.. 6plus i went to my ma shop dere to go for my grandma's birhtday dinner.. my doudou dat side e family all v united.. i lyk it.. cousins oso v supportive! i wanna get to noe dem more ya..ate abit la. not say got alot of appetite lo.. ohoh.. was soworried of nat coz she at ECP wid e 2 stupid pervertic guys lo.. if eva dey do sumthing to u, u mux rem to take of ur shoe n hit them real hard k?.. or col me k? hee!yupz.. =]
haha.. k la.. kinda tired though but coz of e stupid bird keeps chirping away at my window.. haha.. my new alarm clock ..haha! hey Fm, rem wat we msged arh.. ya beta do it.. if not............. no father day for u!!
haha!
HugS guyS..

basically.. today its a fun day though.. stupid blogger keeps hang my blog sia.. haha.. well went to bugis wid jing today in e noon.. suppose to go out wid kelvin today but coz she wanna me acc n kelvin have to acc her gf .. yupz.. went to buy 7 inch bao bei yah for tml kai jin shen.. den went to pray at guan yim tong.. den qiu a chiam.. its a gd 1.. quite happy abt it.. i juz got to wait .. yupz.. anyway, bought a brown bag from zinc bugis junc. den walk ard lo c got nice thing to buy not.. but no.. mayb still not use to e routine yet.. but tink i'll get use to it very very soon! oh.. den we ate at crystal jade lo.. nice service from dere..happie abt it.. cant compared to suntec de lo.. anyway.. saw TK n HIS RACHEL lo.. TK scared me sia.. woah heart attack!! coz he juz stand beside me , face v near.. but i dun even noe lo.. hurhur* funny rite?.. happy for u two la.. hurhur* ohoh..bought 2 doggies hp holder for nat n deb! hurhur*.. its juz for them.. dunno y will buy for them oso.. juz suddenly wanna buy thing for them lo.. HugZ!..

**Love my ger gang!

**shan: c when u free.. i wanna treat u go eat k?.. we shall go out ya?

*huggieZ*

alrite.. i shall continue wat happen later on for today de ya.. jing called me.. den ask me to acc her go bugis dere c n buy bao bei yah.. she took a cab down to fetch me to bugis.. nice rite? haha.. sweet of her.. oh.. den we walk here n dere to find prices lo.. coz tml she got to bring e jin shen to kai yen tml .. yupz.. at last lo.. e weather so hot n we decided to buy e 7 inch small small de.. haha.. $70 lehx.. not cheap lo.. anyway.. den we walk to e guan yim tang.. coz i keep asking jing to go dere pray.. i insisted la.. hehe.. den prayed n qiu for a qian.. its good de.. n its abt relationship de la.. hurhur* den after dat we go e beside shop dere blow air con.. i go dere donate money n 'molest' e laughing buddha.. hurhur* yupz.. well.. gonna do alot of good deeds.. it'll be good for me n my family.. =] ohoh.. den we walk ard lo at bugis lo.. suppose to mit kelvin today.. but i decided not to coz dat idiot wan me to acc her longer.. so bo pian lo.. yupz..bought a brown bag from zinc.. den we went to eat crystal jade.. hmm.. not bad lo.. e ppl dere v friendly n service really cant compare to suntec de.. dey really nice.. =] den jing go c hp pouches.. SCARE me lo.. saw dat idiot TK n his rachel JUZ BESIDE ME LO!! damn scary lehx.. dey juz pop out of no where!! haha.. den we did chat awhile le den we go off lo.. went to buy chocolates for jing ma n my ma.. so good hor me.. hurhur*.. anyway.. den she went to buy 2 madarin orange to pai nian wid my ma.. hurhur*.. so good of her wanna go visit my ma.. or isit wan ang bao huh?? hurhur*.. den we took cab to my ma shop dere.. i paid for it coz jing paid in e noon le.. den after dat we stayed dere watching wo he jiang si you ge yue hui part 3 .. woah.. not bad lehx.. den ate bread lo..till 7plus we acc my ma go send tapes lo.. den we quite have fun in e car le.. laugh n laugh.. hurhur* ohoh.. n sing alot of songs in my ma car.. although tink of sum bad stuffs.. but den after i tink of wat today guan yim niang niang trying to tell me de, i feel beta lo.. yupz.. hurhur* although i cant get used to dis routine yet.. but i'm sure i'll get used to itvery very soon!!

**^^huggiez to all my frenz.. u guys rox.. hey deb n nat.. my dearie gers! i bought u guys a v v cute doggie to put ur fone de.. hope u guys lyk it k?.. muacks.. n shan.. hope to c u again! wanna bring u go eat ya?!!

Happy Birthday tian gong!!

haha.. today is tian gong dan.. neh go sch today coz me damn damn tired.. last nite din go uncle guang dere pray coz i have to go ah kong dere pray.. so many ppl dere lo.. den we eat abit of curry chicken bee hoon dere.. saw ah choi.. my so called god bro from malaysia.. i once had crush on him but saw him le.. he becum thinner.. haha.. anyway.. we prayed half way, ah mei auntie was so nervous den ask my ma to fetch them to orchard lucky plaza.. coz his son ah wai kena incident dere.. he jia' bike den got a taxi juz bang onto him.. so we all faster go dere.. my mama damn funny.. so cute.. she dun noe how to go orchard from ang mo kio.. haha..den she make a big big round den saw ah wai at e road side sitting down wid one of his fren.. it was lyk juz 12plus only lo when e incident happen.. ah mei auntie told us dat guan yin niang niang got warn ah wai dat he will c blood dis few days so asked him to be careful.. hmm.. its ok de la.. wats done is done le.. c his hand n leg kena wounds lo.. lucky neva bang till head giddy or feel lyk vomitting if not it'll be v dangerous.. aiyoh y dat taxi driver so bad neva even cum down n ask if his alrite not lehx.. well.. i flagged a cab for them den dey took him to e private hospital lo.. so happy when dey said thank u to me n my mama.. went home after dat to pray again to tian gong.. was too tired to tink of anything.. pray le wash my face le den i go ZzZ .. haha.. it was lyk 2plus den i slp can.. calvin asked me to be his girl fren.. alamak.. dunno sia.. girls.. wat do u tink.. i asked him to give me sumtime le.. woah piang.. haha.. its too fast.. its always lyk dat de.. when i break wid my ex le den so many ppl flooding ard me.. lyk wat shan said lo.. i v fast will get att.. shit mans.. haha.. later mitin kelvin in e noon to go watch movie.. n eat.. v long neh c him liaoz.. gonna tok more abt him n his gf.. *wish u guys lovin always* =] haha.. tink dat abt it 1st la.. anyway.. i'm feeling real beta.. tink i dun have ennuff slp lately coz of e incident.. well.. i'm alrite rite now.. beta den yest.. now i noe y shan always says tml will be beta den today.. i'll feel more beta.. yupz.. dats wat i feel now.. no hatred now.. no anger.. i'm gg back to being myself when i used to wat i am.. so guys.. dun u guyz worry k? huggies..

baby i love u, and i'll neva let u go.. but if i have to, boy i think dat u shld noe.. all e love we made.. it'll neva be erased.. and i promised u dat u will neva be replaced..


wo jing be shuang yan bing zu hu xi gen ben jiu bu gan zai ye li xiang ni.. shui chi dao zai bai tian yu jian le ni.. kan jian ni xin de wei yi kao zai ni huai li.. wo yong gan yan lei bu neng hu xi.. wo wu fa mian dui zui hou ze ge jie ju.. shui hui xiang dao cheng jing xiang ai de ren.. hai mei you zui hou , wo men de ai yi jing WU NENG WEI LI !!

ALL THANKS TO SHAN.. thanks girl.. u noe dat i'm not feeling any beta n u rush down to mit me n console me.. thanks so much.. anyway.. i'm really feeling beta.. True to say.. rite now she cant c e gd side of me.. but 1 fine day she will.. n she will regret!.. shan.. hope wat u said about e guy will faster cum true.. Sorrie neh girlie dat i din go down to mit u guys.. but juz dat got quite alot of things to ask shan dats y .. n i tink when i reach dere will be quite late le.. yups.. dere will a time k?.. no worries.. I love u guys.. n shan.. wateva i juz now promise u de.. i'll do it!!.. i'll forget abt her slowly.. n i wont hate her.. dis is promise u k?.. n to my ger gangs.. I LOVE U GUYS.. THANKS for being dere for me.. thanks for hearing me out!..

haha.. waiting for nehneh but she still slpin lo.. so cum online..
ok.. i noe u will eva cum into my blog n read my thoughts.. well.. i've think carefully le.. i shld give up on u.. i keeps wonderin y u can lyk 1 person so fast.. but anyway.. its ur choice.. its ur choice to dun contact wid me even if i still wanna be frenz wid u.. talked to shan.. realised dat she says correctly.. sayin dat u totally have no feelings for me so on n so forth..U shld have noe dat girl more den 1 week-1month i tink.. n i believe dats y u keeps wantin me to dun contact u anymore.. dats y when i leave e place u will not follow me behind.. its all coz u bian xin.. u lyk dat girl.. its ok.. i dun mind.. since u can be dat cruel to me.. telling me its totally over between us.. all coz of a girl.. anyway.. dis is e 1st time i eva begged a person..n dis will be e last time as i have told myself on sat.. if mon[v day] u not contacting me or mittin me.. i'll neva bother abt u anymore.. i really believe dat if both person loves each other alot , den 1 of them give another something, but if she/he eva give it away..means i'm givin my love away.. n if she/he lost e thing.. it means dat dey soon will quarrell..its not my 1st time..its not superstitious.. its lyk always so true..
dast y i believe.. mayb dis is a test for us.. mayb not.. mayb u will neva cum back to me.. but its ok.. i've learnt my lesson e harsh way.. although my heart isn't fully healed.. but i really hope dat time will heal it for me..
after all this bad news.. i'm a free person le.. ate yu shen last nite.. had alot of thoughts.. made my wishes.. hope dey'll slowly come true.. but dun worry.. its not abt u.. i wont eva ask u to cum back to me.. i wont eva begged u.. u choose dis path urself.. so i'm sticking to it.. anyway.. dats all how i feel.. after all dis.. i tink i becum stronger den last time.. i tink i can handled it..

**thanks my frenz for being dere(nat,deb,fm,ain,cindi,vivi)*huggieZ*

okok.. after all e bad things.. me , nat , fm, deb met up to go marina bay eat steamboat.. but in e end.. we took cab to newton circus dere eat.. yupz.. although my heart still feel abit heavy.. but i'm still controling lo.. hope tml is a beta day.. okok.. today ate quite lil coz no appetite.. anyway gd for me too.. coz i can slim down more.. haha.. juz hope to be slimmer.. anyway.. i love all of u .. thanks for being dere.. thanks shisi for dat sweet msg.. thanks fm makin stupid faces.. thanks nat n deb n cindi for keep being dere for me.. pei me skip 2 lesson...haha.. but i've learnt my lesson well dis time.. i'll be strong k?.. dun worry.. *huggieZ*

well.. after hearing those harsh words from u.. heard dat u lyk sum1 else within 1 week n u can rather mit her intead of me n says dat u dun love or lyk me anymore.. i'm hurt.. but i'll be strong.. anyway wish u n ur future GF best of lucks.. as for me.. i dun wanna commit into a r/s le.. mayb when i get to stable down properly.. to 18: thanks for teaching me wats love e harsh way.. i learned n realised all my frenz care for me.. Thanks to NAT, CINDI, DEBRA, FENGMING, VIVI.., Ain.. i'll neva forget all of u.. thanks pals.. u guys roX manz.. now.. WE ALL ARE E SINGLE FAMILY!! haha.. dun worry i'll cheer up v fast.. so long got u all.. everything's be alrite..
=]

well.. dis v day happened alot of things .. in e end u din cum n mit me.. i understand coz u have sum1 in mind le.. i dunno if its really true u have sum1 in mind.. but anyway.. wish u guys best of lucks.. well.. if u wan, we can still be frenz.. ya?.. i wanna be lyk deb n nat lyk dat treat me.. hehe..

alrite i'm done.. i've did wat i can.. col u umpteen times but u dun wanna pick it up.. msged u umpteen times but u ignored all my msges.. BEGGED u to let me mit u tml 2 cel v day.. BUT u still ignored my msg..
had migraine juz now.. over cried in e toilet.. dare not let my fam noes.. my da sao heard me crying in e toilet.. asked me y.. but i juz kept quiet.. headed to my room n continue e stupid tears..flowing down my cheek.. i really wonders y a sudden change in u.. U were e one who says will be dere for me always.. will love me.. wont leave me.. wont eva give me empty promises.. will change ur att towards me.. will treat me beta.. BUT... y now u treating me dis way?... anyway.. tink i beta be prepared to hear bad new from u.. i dunno if u noe dat i really treasure u n oso treasure e times we had?.. anyway.. its gg to be de end of us soon.. juz give me a big deep stab in my heart n let me heal it myself..

***was so so hoping dat all e while u doing dis to me.. is lyk wat nat says:
gonna give me a surprise on v day...
Really do hope so...

*sob*

Tears juz keeps flow down my cheek everytime i tink of u...
i miss u... really do..

well.. Happy New Year to all of my frenz.. its a new year..so i dun wanna be sad n all.. but... haiz.. juz drift apart from sum1.. its so hurtful.. do u noe?.. i have to wait for ur msg all day long.. for 2 days.. den to receive only 2 msg.. wat has happen?.. do u noe i've been crying nites n nites recently although its CNY?? can u juz let me noe n explain to me? can u col me n at least let me hear ur voice? so hurt.. :'( i have to put up a smiley face everywhere i go .. but deep down in my heart.. its so so heavy n hurtful! did u lyk sum1 else? wat has happen!!! i've been thinking so much recently.. thinking till i almost cried in front of my family.. but i tried to control my tears.. why when i needed u.. u were not dere? why when i wanna c u.. u always juz shun away? i no longer no who i am.. mon is already v day.. i tot i can at least got sum1 to cel wid me.. but now... haiz.. *sob*... i was SO SO SO hoping dat dere will be a person i care alot will appear suddenly n surprise me wid anything!.. even if dere's nothing.. but if dere's U... i'll be SO SO happy!!Miss U~! *sob*

playing cardgames wid my kor's frens n da sao's fam at my hse for lyk.. 4nites.. won abit la.. had steamboat today at my relative's church.. den went to pai nian till later eveing we went to tiong watch i do i do.. funny show though.. but while i watching e show.. i tink of u.. was looking at my fone e whole time.. but no msg or col from u.. sad.. heavy heart.. depress..

i hope u're havin fun ..enjoying ur CNY.. beta take gd care of ur health while enjoying k..

*U can forget about me rite now.. BUT i will neva eva forget... YOU!#18

**dear ger gangs:
missing u guys.. enjoying ur every bits of ang baos? got gamble ma? sch gg to start soon.. summore onn dat stupid v day sia.. n got test summore.. c u guys soon k?.. HAPPY V DAY TO MY FRENZ!!

::: Chinese New YeaR eVE ::: 

::: happie New Year to All ::: 

haha.. sat(05/02/05) cool lehx.. went to eat tiong bahru rajah inn steamboat.. haha.. a new china guy.. so he din noe wat we always order.. make mistake ehs? haha.. oh.. saw e girl who always serve us de at ebase outside.. bought a black top wid yellow ribbon frm ebase.. den went to town.. walk frm centrepoint bus stop to heeren.. Woah.. damn alot of ppl lo.. tink dey preparing for chingay n stuff lo.. scary lehx.. so damn crowded.. we go walk ard.. saw my sec sch mate working.. wow.. nice sehs.. saw a nice bag frm dere.. but.. din buy it.. wait till i got $$ 1st.. hee* yupz.. but real nice lehx.,.. haha.. gonna buy it!! .. oOo.. was hunting for a skirt n shoe sia.. but dun haf nice 1.. went to far east in e end.. Saw my cousin pauline wid her BF.. haha.. but tink she din c me lo.. cos i was buying drink.. yupz.. c so many shoe still tink my pruple shoe nice.. haha.. die la.. gonna hunt for 1 so dat i can wear it on chinese new year.. oOo.. was decided to go this fashio c got any thing to try or buy.. saw a skirt v plain.. but i wanted to buy for lyk ages? haha.. since dunno when lehx.. vv long liaoz.. i got e brown de wid ribbon bought frm bangkok..e black de.. e dirty green de.. n now e jeans material de.. haha.. okok.. went to scotts dere buy mocha drink.. haha.. woah.. me damn blur lo.. din bring key out but i told kusie i neh bring.. tink she forget.. den woah.. outisde my hse knock lyk hell oso no1 open door.. so call my ma.. den in e end kusie at my ma dere.

*FAINTS* argh.. called my da sao where is she.. she say 10 min will reach home.. but in e end she go buy bread b4 she cum back when i even told her my SHIT wanna cum out liaoz..!! AIYOH.. i waited 4 lyk 30 min to go toilet shit can.. woah lau.. haha.. bad experience la.. haha.. was watching e GHOST channel 5 show n e channel 8 show 2gether.. e ghost show v nice n sweet lo.. So romantic!.. e channel 8 de damn funny n stupid lo.. haha.. k la.. i later gg out wid my ma dey all again.. (family day) gg chinatown later to buy n collect things.. haha.. k la.. cIAoZ~!~

::: JapPy Me ::: 

:::: woah! Me So HIp YeAh? *hurhur* ::: 

well recently v lazy update blog sia.. dunno why oso.. hurhur* alrite.. yest went collect my fone frm CS nokia care le den go window shop ard le went to uncle dere pray.. he says dat e chinese 2005 will have alot of problem oso.. heaven's will..and its about e planes.. he asked us to beta stay in s'pore n not 'flying to other places' coz dere mayb alot of crashing.. hmm.. anyway.. chinese new year coming le.. So happie lo.. angbao zue zue.. haha.. kinda tired dis few days..YAWNZ* oh.. my magic bean stalk 1 of them grew le.. so nice.. but 1 still stuck dere lehx.. so sad.. hope it will grow faster.. hee*.. oh.. happy dat arh neh now feelin beta le la.. dat deb hor.. beta dun keep bully dat surewin fella k.. haha~! Coz he look v small though.. haha~! okok.. me later gg tiong bahru eat rajahinn.. my fav place for steamboat.. its cheap n filling.. although e 'liao' lyk v lil.. but I LOVE e soup! hurhur*.. den gg to town go shop n buy clothing lo.. n my CNy shoe.. heee.. k la.. later den blog again..

My dear neh arh.. wahaha.. say me do stupid action rite.?? *hmm* i dun tok to u liaoz.. wahaha.. well so sweet of deb makin dedication for e gergang.. i will make 1 for u guys too de ya.. So wait along girls!

OoOo..btw.. to some losers:
hey cum on lo.. y muz u be so lite-ears huh? do u noe u haf offend me coz of ta way u put ur words? u may say u din blame or wat.. BUT u're too sarcastic when u say i'm too suay coz i'm e only 1 online( dis is not an excue lo).. but hey~ cum on.. who e hell would wanna tok abt ur rubbish! Only me n nat noes wat exactly we did n say during e whole performance! n by the way.. Dun u eva point dat fucking finger on anyone else who din even Rubbish Abt U!! So? FucK Off DuDE!!

alrite.. well juz now went tamp make my fone.. yupz.. ate ajisen.. well.. today kinda pissed wid sum one coz of wat happen yest.. dis is juz so so damn ridiculous lo.. guys: u juz ask urself k.. if u were me.. wat will u do.. well.. u guys dun noe wat has happen.. but dis has showed me well enuff of who can be frens n who cant be...

But to fm, deb n nat:
U guys juz rawkS my world dude!
I Lurve U gUyS!


*Dun judge look by its cover.. Coz i dun haf e look.. i only haf e heart to be wid my frenz n love ones..

YawnZy.. hasn't been updating my blog coz think my blog got prob sia.. gonna change 1 nice skin soon.. yupz.. well .. recently happen alot of things sehs.. Lucky our project 1 finish liaoz.. dat stupid surewin fella told us to go b3-04 den in e end e b2-04. stupid rite?.. make us go the other ppl's room.. so shy** No Corn cup for u~!~! *bleahz* wahaha.. =x.. anyway.. damn tired sia... everything as usual... so sweet of my ma will give me money buy clthing but hor.. she forget of my pocket money lo.. wahaha.. yest din go anywhere .. stayed at home played com.. watch tv.. watch dat fafa show. haha.. was so irritated wid sum1 when dat sum1 scold vulgur to a girl lo.. how can a guy do dat to a girl? *ShUcKz* dat guy sia.. Freako... deb has becum crazy liaoz.. we mux bring her go hougang soon.. anyway things has been still e same for me.. go sch go home.. haha.. stupid routine.. gonna go out shopping real soon!! gonna quit my current job coz too tired.. still got another blardy project2 to do sehs.. stressed again.. my com dunno wat happen sia.. yest already do a new posting but den it din come out at all lo.. even i republish n all.. yawnz.. watching sparkyblue flash now.. damn violent sia e happy tree friends. haha.. but fun though.. today during pe damn bored sias.. we practically juz throwing balls to every1.. haha.. k la ..

To my dear Nat:
i dun wanna c u being sad/moody n all k? no matter wat happens .. at least juz let me noe dat u dun feel lyk toking or wat.. i'll let u cool off n be alone.. k? dun make me blur blur stand dere.. haha.. will be dere for u de k?.. *huggieZ*