ya.. took a cab to pick cindy girlie to sch.. was so happy dat dis is e 1st n last time we went for assembly.. haha* well, hope dat nat girlie is ok.. coz recently she not say v gd mood.. HUGZ for my girlie* oh.. yup* was having a very jokey day coz we r once again talking abt ru hua.. haha* damn fucking funny sia.. n u noe wat?.. james joined us too... haha* called me n we talk till my fone low batt sia.. haha* was supposed to meet ben today for e blardy 1st time.. yeah.. oh.. btw.. after break we went to J8 to walk ard lo.. coz we all v sians.. skipped HR coz got class test.. n ya.. i forget to bring e blardy diskette for HR presentation.. haha* anyway, went home alone.. ya.. saw 2 police cars downstairs my hse.. den i was quite curious though.. so i keep looking lo.. yupz~ he* relly dun mean it la.. den dunno y saw e blue tent in front of e garage next blk.. so i got pop my head of my room n c.. called my mum abt it.. asked her.. ashe told me got ppl jump off the blardy building beside me lo.. den ya.. was kinda scared though.. ya.. den i realised i've been staring at dat blardy blue tent inside is e blardy dead body.. fuck* .. lucky dey covered it.. i went to bath n all to prepare go mit ben at tiong.. den ya.. while msgin valentino.. he's nice guy.. he's worried abt me.. abt everything.. hee* ya.. den dunno y i pop my blardy head out again den i saw e blardy dead body .. I"M SERIOUS!! ITS DAMN FUCKIN SCARY! e whole time was moody .. was thinking abt dat body.. its a woman.. bloods n her brains are outside.. so scary... no mood to go out la.. but i promised ben so i bo pian lo.. talked to valentino while i on my way to mit ben.. he pei me talk.. he's nice though.. ya.. he's voice sound so girl.. haha* he distracted me away thinking abt e incident..dunnoy he can do dat.. haha* yeaps.. met up wid ben.. walked to his blk.. damn tall.. 30 storey.. went up to c e nice scenery.. can c merlion sentosa.. n all. can c town.. hee* sweet* oh.. yupz* den we wentta his hse at 4th floor to c his last time foto.. yupz* he 's a successful guy cum instructor la.. lion dance n dragon dance de..got his own disciple n stuff.. got free show for me.. haha* loves xin dua n all.. same as me de.. a boss of dunno wat car company.. haha** but sad background.. *sad for him* he's not gd looking.. but he's heart is good..! alrite, den he pei me go take bus to bedok inter .. coz supposed to have jia dok wid uncle n family.. yupz* james msged me saying dat dev is wid him.. so i called him up den.. ya.. we're no longer together.. yeaps* frens still la.. yuPz* hopes e best for him though* ya.. was kinda pissed though.. but hope we can still be frenz lo.. yupz* wentta meet up wid uncle dey all.. den took a cab down to e dunno where to eat dinner.. saw a junior 'zhang jing xuan lookalike' frm my sch de.. he's dere helpin out e xin dua.. haha* yupz* was halfway havin dinner had cols frm ben.. askin me how am i? n stuff.. he's nice la.. haha* ohh.. deb baby was real sad over some idiot.. *LOVE U MY DEAR GIRL* dun be sad.. i'll always be dere for u ok? dun tink so much* go look at ur eugene la.. hee* HUGZ*yupz* took a cab hm lo.. too tired.. den ya. james called me n stuff n we talked lo.. rubbish again.. haha* had a gd day though.. too bad ben today go genting.. but he's sweet dat he promise to get me bears la.. haha* lalala* will he be e one? ooo.. anyway.. today morning met up wid nat girlie go eat lo.. den of coz dat corrupted girl oso sneak or rather.. run out of sch to join us la.. haha* ate le den we go sch lo.. heng'er came n all.. aiyoh.. had detention la.. but we had fun though.. haha* i kinda miss ben though.. wat happen to me.. well.. guys.. i'm v confused.. got so many choices for me now.. 7 of them! i dunno y i choose only e guys.. 5= guys, 2= butch.. haha* guess i'm changin my impression of a guy liao la.. .. saw dev when i on e way to mrt.. ya.. saw him den was kinda sad though.. haiz.. how?.. well.. its over between us le.. so i guess.. frens ba.,. yupz* oh well.. ben's coming back on fri.. hope he'll give me a gd surprise! haha* i got to wait for him next year for him to fetch me to sch to n fro can.. haha* coz of?.. FENG SHUI! haha* same same de.. he's a oso another small boy la.. act small nia.. wanna kill me if u saw dis?.. I"LL THROW DURIAN AT U!! haha* lalal* k la.. gonna sing a song for u guys.. a song learnt from james..

** ZHU.... Yi ge bi zi liang ge dong!
Zhou lai Zhou chu kan qi lai PI KU FEI liu liu.....

HAHAHAHHAHAH* oopz* Wink^o*

haha* wentta mit cindy dearie n deb dearie in town.. suppose to go for man hunting* BUT!! we were kena hunk tio den lookin for hunks can.. haha* well.. lovely of them to pei me shop ard.. haha* wentta heeren walk walk.. den walk to ehx.. taka le den wisma.. wentta try on some tops from ebase.. yupz* bought 2 spag from dere.. green n black.. hee* deb tried too.. 1 of them is e so called butterfly thingy top.. haha* SO MANY PINKIES IN TOWN YEST!! was so scary can.. haha* wanted to cut my hair though.. but cindy dearie aske me to wait 1st.. ya.. so i listen to her lo.. hehe* yeah* wentta far east lo.. haha* ya.. walk ard.. bought myself a new pair of button earrings.. hee* I'm IN ("V") WID BUTTONS!
OoOOo.. walk till my mouth itchy so we went up to eat lo.. ate chicken rice lo.. haha* funn though* yupz* den deb dearie gtg to mit her frenie.. so we pei her go mit lo.. yupz* left me n cindy .. walk back to far east to walk e whole plaza again* haha* not sian but fun la.. yeah* WAS SO MA LU can.. blardy shitty fella made e floor slippery n i nearly fly can.. lucky cindy dearie holding me.. if not.. BUT... CINDY DEARIE LAFF LYK SIAO LO!! stupid sia her!! haha* yupz* den we talk rubbish n stuff.. denw e took a train down to city hall.. go suntec.. yupz* haha* walked ard again.. n den we wentta carrefour to get some drinks n i bought sashimi for myself.. hehe* nicey* long time no eat le.. missing my chawanmushi sehs... haha* 1 FINE DAY!! I gonna eat my jap food!! YESH* haha* ooo.. den we wentta fountain dere eat n talk.. haha* talk till 11 plus den we walk back to city hall den we took cab home lo.. haha* a fun day n a really slacking day for me .. GOOD* haha* *thumbs up* haha* ooo.. went home bath n change le.. den erm.. was lyk ben called me up.. den we talk lo.. my gosh.. not another 1 jioing me can.. haha* fiants* me n dev i tink no more le la.. yupZ* hack la.. hahA* ooo.. den talked to ben till 3plus in e morning lo.. haha* damn tired.. haha* he seems veh nice.. yupz* fm called me ask me out to go eat supper near my area.. haha* how to sia.. me already stuck on my bed liaoz.. next time ok?.. i'll sure go eat wid u all de.. haha* n his fren funny too.. haha* ya.. den i wentta slp lo.. tired me sehs.. haha* well.. gonna update soon ya?.. huggiez*

("V") my girlies to e max*

**hope to find my love soon..

alrite.. yest was kinda sick la.. so tired.. den went home after sch to rest lo.. yupz* damn lazy blog lehx.. haha* oh.. dar din col or msg me for e whole day.. den was lyk telling myself.. if he still din col me or wat.. till 12am.. i'll break wid him lo.. coz i'm those kidna girl wanna security.. wan freedom but not so much* i need ppl to care oso la.. to love me.. be dere for me.. of coz.. but dunno lehx.. haiz* haha* was lyk thinking lo.. den hmm.. ya.. haha* gonna go for man hunting veh soon* wentta shop wid cindy n deb girlie at J8 after sch.. haha* walk here n dere as if we're lost sia.. den deb halfway go off.. den left me n cindy.. haha* was approached by some idiot to ask us go makeover..haha*stupid de.. but we tan tiok 2 sweets la..den after dat went home lo..yupz* ate my crispy chicken haha* yeah* oh.. den was watching tv n surfing net .. den went back to room to rest den hor.. kena shocked dat james miss col me.. den ya.. was actualyl dar called me.. he din go for interview but he went to help his fren.. shitty fella* anyway..haha* recently got guys col n disturb me la.. haha* but ok la.. nice ppl.. juz chit chatting n talk rubbish sia.. yupz* ooo.. happy birthday ben** oh.. belated de* hee* haha* i really forget dat i actually wished u sia..haha*
supposed to go for assembly today morning de.. met up wid cindy girlie.. but hor.. haha* was 5 min late so ended up eating mac lo.. haha* yupz* was a sian day la..tired n stuff.. yupz* wentta c got anythign buy at e pasar malam at J8.. wanna get new tees as my nite wear coz my tees all drop colour la.. or already torned.. haha* so i beta get some for myself.. yeah* but in e end din get it.. haha* yupz* went home lo.. damn tired.. but still ya.. later gg to uncle dere pray la.. tml no nid go m'sia liaoz.. yeah* can go shopping liaoz.. hee* happy me*

met up wid my girlies in e morning to eat mac breakfast.. haha* deb joined too! hee* yupz* well.. today's lesson was kinda sianz.. but we had fun though.. was tired.. esp after dat assy p.e.. i really hated dat lesson! haha* my girls too rite? haha* YUPZ* skipped last lesson.. yupz* den hor.. dat fugly greenie 'cher caught me n nat to go c our section head sia.. haha* guess wat.. office skill de, accounting de, steven low, admin section heads all dere.. n dey even talk to e both of us lyk old pals sia.. haha* fugly bastard caught us.. neva try us b4 is it?? how dare u!! fuck spider sia!! haha* yupz.. oh.. i rem wat we did in com lab today.. haha* funny sia.. ger gang e best!

went home after eating at J8 with girlie nat .. ate teppanyaki.. haha* yupz* den went home bath le n slp lo.. dar suppose to come over my area.. but coz he too lazy.. haha* k la.. he not feelin really well.. yupz* hope he's fine too.. hee* yupz* i noe he care la.. but mayb he dunno how to care lo.. yupZ* haha* well.. after nap le.. he called me den we talk lo.. lyk siao lyk dat.. hah* deh here n dere.. haha* yupz* i misses my girlies.. n ya la.. i actually do misses dev lehx.. ya.. haha* i realised sum1 actually a flirt.. takin other girls for granted.. dis kinda ppl juz sucks.. i hate them wid my whole entire fugly hert! MY GIRLS NOE WHO'S DAT LA.. ~ fugly jerks who dun deserve a gd stead at all.. LIARS! SUCKERS! CHEATERS! FUCKERS GO TO HELL~! STR8 TO HELL..still can tell me u r a christian.. fuck sia.. throw face la! go c urself in e mirror! if e girls noe wat i've gone thru.. i believe dey'll hate u lyk wat i did!!
FUCK OFF, SUCKER!!

** i'll rather wait den find..
**i'll rather beloved den love..

many things have happen in my life.. esp in my ("v") life~! everytime i think of it.. i feel sad.. depress. i dunno y.. mayb its me~ haiz* e thought of 1 of my ex.. we had so much memories! hope u will rem e days we had spent together.. n hope u r happy rite now wid ur new love life! for my another ex.. i'm happy too.. hope u r happy. well.. u guys mux be wondering y i lyk dat rite?.. guess i always hope dat my stead will be happy ba* yupz* well.. i really dunno where i'm heading to.. i really hope to find sum1 who can love me, treat me gd lyk a princess, secure, responsible, take gd care of me de.. is it v hard to find?.. no need yan dao de.. juz presentable de oso cant mehx? haiz.. guess i still have to wait n wait la.. yupz*

hmm.. alrite.. well, let me juz talk abt wat happen recently.. oh.. u guys noe abt dev n james dey all le rite? haha* dey juz sucks! can come in e middle of e nite to wake me up! freako rite? n ya.. yest dey all came to my hse downstairs to pei dev find me.. n ya.. wid e lovely fried rice.. ya.. but i dunno la.. had some misunderstandings lo.. was kinda pull e whole mood down.. haiz.. after dat quite ok liaoz.. we wentta toa payoh dere lo.. n i c dem eat lo.. talked to dev.. at least i made him smile again.. haha* C?? i got power de hor* haha* ya.. but.. dunno lehx.. well, today wake up damn sick la.. dun feel lyk gg sch de.. but force myself to wake up.. so xin ku can.. anyway, had my mac breakfast at canteen.. wid my lovely gers.. n ya.. c them really make my day.. but i was sick la so.. haha* din really smile alot.. well, keep seeing girl's leng zai sia.. haha* aiyoh.. she not wid me.. haha*anyway, me n cindy had a good talk.. n ya.. laugh lyk siao.. coz of ru hua* ya.. y our topic always ru hua de.. haha* we're e best sia!!yupz.. went home liaoz.. left me alone at home.. listening to shang zui ren by leo ku.. canto song.. damn nice* sad.. but i love it.. yupz* tink i gonna move on wid my lovely life.. haha* was kinda shock dat.. dylan la.. thomas la.. kevin la.. kenneth la.. woah.. msged me sia.. coz dey all dunno fly where liaoz.. n dey still rem me!! hee* happy me* was happy dat kevin msged me.. was kinda bored when thomas msged me.. haha* was glad dat dylan still rem me too.. yupz* ok la.. a wonderful day la.. but hor dat fugly idiot din msg me lo.. U NOE WHO U R** BLARDY HELL!! U Freako AsshOLe!! IdioT!@! haha* alrite.. done* hope u guys love e mu nai yi song yeah.. DAMN fugly NICE~!~!~!


**always lurves my gers so much! U gers r e best gift sent from heaven!

** listens to mu nai yi, medley, ai yu cheng*

你說要我 死了卻可惜
最好永遠存放在愛情
像木乃伊保持著生命
敲也敲不破
令世界都忘記
你一直嘮叨著所謂真理
不堪的心 只看到我不是他的記憶
要我節哀 雖然她不該
如果看不開
我怎麼活過來 愛
木乃伊的心在燒
金字塔裡悶到老
也許我自己太在意 被拋棄
無法忍受黑暗的沉默孤寂
木乃伊的心在跳
抱著希望慢慢熬
我哭泣 最後的 一份力 撐下去
相信真愛 就在我醒來的新世紀
殘缺的心

**my fave song!!

to c.. click view.. den encoding.. click unicode! n yupz.. dats it!

yupz* slp till quite song though sumppl called me in e middle of the nite la* 1st is dev.. den james.. haha* dey are lyk owl sia.. no nid to slp de.. haha* well.. yupz* james was telling me dat he was cycling wid his frenz to my hse here.. den wentta whampoa.. hah* siao rite dis ppl!! haha* alrite.. me damn sian.. n was actually e whole day at home lo.. v long neh lyk dat liaoz.. haha* oh.. my jie's ma came over n den we played mahjong lo.. haha* played till7plus.. yupz.. n den was lyk.. i win 3bucks la.. not bad! haha* yupz.. den dat assy idiot haven wake up.. was thinking of mittin him de.. go watch movie or wat.. but dat idiot hor.. haiz.. he only noe how 2 slp la.. haha* yupz..haha* alrite.. abit tired liaoz.. anyway.. i tink i slowly got feelings for him sia.. yupz*haha* weird though.. but hope we can last la.. hmm.. wat luo han says quite true lehx.. haha* anyway..i beta stick to 1 guy.. but it always happen dat sure got a few guys suddenly pop out de lo.. wat e hell rite?.. haha* bo pian la.. i oso dunno y lyk dat! haha* anyway.. *hugz* my gers.. i misses them! gonna c them tml!
hee*

last nite when to uncle dere to pray.. den talk to some idiotic person la.. on e fone.. haha* make me go over to toa payoh again* shit HIM SIA! all HIS blardy fault! hah* yesh* if u guys wanna noe.. i'm attached! again! haha* fast?.. yeah.. i oso tink so.. my idiot beta treat me good hor.. if not u die! haha* he's my idiot n my black black!! haha* NUTS RITE?.got attached in this stupid morning..coz i made a deal to tell him my answer in the nite.. n ya..erm.. ya lo.. u guys noe wat liao la.. had some misunderstandings wid a v gd fren of mine.. n ya.. i din noe dat she fall for me.. only now i juz saw it.. in her friendster.. n fridae.. *gosh* y everytime when i like dat person de person wont like me huh? den i dun like e person den the person like me? haha* esp when i'm single dat time.. so many guys scaring me.. aiyoh.. wats wid them?! alrite.. took a cab down to amk to mit dat idiot of mine.. HE's TALLER DEN MEEE!!! ALOT!! haha* okok.. den followed him walk ard lyk lost souls.. haha* den he really walk damn fast lo.. make me so short n slow.. shitty him! haha* james was rather sad .. dunno y he dun wanna say out wor.. but hope he'll be fine! anyway, den we siao siao took a bus back to tp lor 7blk9.. his downstairs where the stupid gathering always take place.. was so tired den c his face den i dunno y will laugh lo.. haha* anyway, after dat chat wid deb on the fone.. she's talking to me abt danny.. haha* her beloved kory! he's scaring my girl away! SHIT HIM! haha* my girlie arh.. BEWARE! haha* yupz.. was becoming more tired n all le.. so went to sit a 1 of the slide dere to rest n nap lo.. ya.. kena disturb by sum assholey ppl.. haha* ya.. my fone was auto off .. low batt.. n was kinda pissed wid it.. haizZ* den tried to rest n all.. den went home bout 12plus.. coz i cant take it liaoz.. den idiot send me go take cab lo.. haha* yupz*.. oh gosh.. dinn slp at all n have to wake up at 445am to prepare go batu pray sia..yawnz.. e tour guard was nice n cute n ya.. every1's making fun of me n him ya.. saying he keep noticing me n all.. ASS them la..* but really lehx.. can still ask me i is it got c him b4 or wat.. haha* somemore can still repeat wat e shifu told me.. woah.. he really takin notice of me* but ya la.. too old for me.. haha* no need!haha* yupz* was really eating n praying den eat again n pray n eat n pray.. woah.. dats wat we do today~! n lucky we're so safe back home! n i'm fucking tired now! was abit pissed wid wat dev did la.. coz he anyhow say the word break which i dun like.. but hee* made me smile after i shoot him back n he apologise to me n say he wont do dat again.. hee* U BETA BE.. IDIOT PERVERTIC PHYSCHOTIC FELLA~! Hee* HUGZ*

** asshole tally indiana blackie fella **

**Dev Dev dev**

**16 april **

yupz* wentta mit soon ann last nite to catch a movie lo.. i choose to watch the pacifier.. yupz* kinda tired la.. v shagged n all.. coz i very slpy.. yupz* fren fren* pei him go LJ eat .. he bought me choc fudge cake form TCC n chocs for me* haha* thanks my fren* n ya.. wentta watch movie loooo.. oh.. DAMN FUNNY SHOW SIA! NiCE 1!!haha* i laughed till my throat pain sia.. haha* was msging james haha* yupz.. was kinda funny when he told me abt his funny dream.. haha* ya.. den he was telling me abt he fightin n stuff.. 2+ in e morning to msg me n tell me his hand got blood n all.. wake up dat time scare me sia.. haha* beta take gd care ok?
went sch n all.. msged him too.. talk to him lyk nobody biz too.. haha* happie for my nat girlie to find sum1 who loves her n treats her so nice* i oso wanna find 1 liaoz.. waiting! my cindy girlie find 1 le.. nat girlie find 1 le.. now left me n deb n shi nia.. haiz.. when will it be? anyway.. suppose to mit james later but he was havin bad fever.. n ya.. he can now go out while me have to stay at home... coz of wat u noe?? i sprained my ankle! while walking down e stairs to my hse! assHOLE* ya.. so best rite? haha* ya.. so sianz.. v tired.. gonna slp early today to rest n nap! yeah*

**when will my prince charming rescue me from this 'love' trap??

haha* was on the fone wid my hammie girlie coz was deciding for today's morning thingy~ hee* deb's today's organiser agent! wahah* dats a long name sehs.. shld put hammie la.. hee* today my bacon wasn't here coz she still slpin..hee* hope ur head ok le la yeah my girlie? was kinda hurt when i heard abt wat happen* haiz.. i've did wat i did.. n u juz taking ppl for granted n anyway.. u r really thinking too much* its not wat u think.. haiz* anyway* yupz..dun wanna tok abt dis kinda thingy* anyway* after sch went home lo.. coz damn tired n stuff.. alrite.. went home den tok on fone wid sum idiot asshole lo.. damn funny* dunno y will laugh at him oso.. hhaha* can say he's e most funny guy i can talk cock to.. haha* fun* oopz* its raining* haha* anyway.. yupz.. today met up wid deb girlie n cindy girlie n shi.. wentta eat mac lo.. was really really so 'zun'.. NAT!! u shld have come to sch today..ur lang zai was all over the place.. we keep banging unto him sia.. alot alot alot of times today! aiyoh.. u shld have come la..* hee* hugz* was kinda sians.. very lazy blog le la.. damn sianz.. damn tired.. den weather not v gd.. pimples popping out again.. so tired* haha* recently like canto song sia.. damn nice* from leo ku.. he's e best sia.. can sing* really* my gosh* esp the medley.. n ai yu cheng* haha* its in my fone now.. n i'm so fucking happy abt it* yupz. learnt dat sum1 was att* happie for him* =] n for the other 1.. hope dat we can be gd frenz though* yeah* HUgz* hee* gonna go out wid dat idiot asshole liaoz.. ciaoz my girlies* n .. oh.. anonymous: although i dunno who u r.. but u r welcome to tag yeah?.. hope 2 noe who u r.. haha* i'm frenly la*.. no scared yeah! haha* hug*

yeah* on sat[09/04/05] wentta have lunch wid my darling nat at cine suki sushi.. ate till lyk so damn full sia.. coz i ate sashimi.. my fave!! haha* n ya.. my lovely girl cant ate finish n i'm damn full n i've to help her finish it! haha* did somthing to e sushi.. haha* sorrie sushi* haha*
wentta taka dere to mit my other girls.. cindy n her stead n shi.. yupz* den we walk to far east dere.. den slack.. got myself a cheap tee.. yupz.. den slack at fr east burger king dere till we wentta shaw's mos dere sit lo.. slack..den wentta mit kenneth n hock kee lo.. yupz.. wentta queue go CB.. left my dearies n my poor girl cried.. *sayang* yeaps.. was hoping to dance e nite out.. budden Cb havin events.. mark was dere to be e host for the liverpool soccer team.. n stuff.. hah* funny.. den after dat was purely dancing .. was pissed wid sum1.. coz he keep blocking me! haha* my girls noe wat happen la.. den aiyoh.. wanna tok to H.K but he keep blocking .. damn extra! hah* anyway.. dance only awhile den wentta take cab to marina south den dey all playing computer games.. only 2 ppl la.. haha* jing n raymond* yupz.. kinda sweet of him to 'snatch' my drink away n help me pay.. hee* anyway.. slack at dere n walk lyk zombie.. was kinda regret to leave CB lo.. but ok la.. anyway.. wentta book cab coz damn tired.. n shagged* so went hm at bout 5 lo.. wentta slp den MY BIRTHDAY!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF* hah* den.. ya.. was damn tired reluctant to wake up sia.. den 12plus wake up...was so shocked dat i was damn LATE! coz suppose to mit shan.. hee* oh.. den in e end.. she came to control to mit me.. den we went to cine eat yuki yaki.. yupz.. my fav!! haha* damn full n nice* coz got ice cream* cooking ice cream* hee* anyway, walk ard for shan's sis's skirt.. leg damn pain.. coz was wearing heels.. for so long lehx..haha* damn at last found 1 for her.. from roxy sehs.. haha* i choose de.. not bad lo..hah* yupz.. at last can go home.. sweetie shan send me home by cab den she go tamp.. den me rest awhile at home watch tv le den wentta parkway.. was kinda sad coz my ma din buy my birthday cake! FOR ONCE, i realised i became a small lil girl can?.. coz i was rather sad when i heard no cake.. den no wish.. so sad* i told my ma dat i dun care i wan 1 cake..haha* she say where got ppl ask for birthday cake de.. haha* ME LA* ASSY~!~! anyway.. got myself cakes.. 6 kinds.. haha* den v happy liaoz.. so wentta pick my kor le den pick my jie from DFS.. yupz.. den we wentta newton circus eat lo.. MY Idea!! hee* budden hor.. 2 times go toilet sehs.. haha* was kinda late le.. damn scared cant wish for my birthday.. hurried them to eat faster.. den reach home le den quickly prepare e cakes n stuff.. hee* yeah* b4 12 sehs.. yupz* WISHED!! So happy*

*** I wISh UpON The sTarS~!~!~! ***

loVes Leo Ku'S MedLey.. ShanG zUi rEn.. Ai yu ChenG~!

waItinG foR tHE riTe 1 to COMe..

was kinda late for our 1st lesson la.. met up wid cindy dearie go sch budden we waited for shi to come so end up havin breakfast at mac lo.. AGAIN! haha* oh.. den saw dat idiot wee siang haha* den he joined us oso.. he siao siao 1.. wondering y come sch in e 1st place when he decided not to go sia.. haha* oh anyway.. slack in sch n i MEAN SLACK~! Shi girlie gave me pressie sehs.. sweet of her* *hugz* haha* haha* for only i tink 2 hours den me n deb go apply leave sia.. haha* pathetic acting of mine~! hah* ok.. went hm to rest n blar balr le den bath n prepare to mit my girlies lo.. guess wat! i'm suppose to mit my deb girl at 2.30 den becum 330 den becum 4 can? haha* shitty fella Hammie~! oh.. den my nat girlie wentta c doc coz sick sehs.. *sayang* mux take gd care o* Huggiez* haha* wentta cine dere ate ramen n stuff.. n OH~! my CHAWANMUSHI AGAIN!~ haha* damn best sia.. i love CHAWANMUSHI~! i can eat lyk 6-10 cups of it when i was at meridien genki can.. haha! power rite* coz nice to eat wat~! lala* i tink i saw H.K working at cartel lo.. den too far.. guess he cant c properly coz of ethe lighting.. i confirmed wid kenneth den ya~!!~ HE"S DERE WORKIN~! wahaha* oopz.. so nice lehx.. hee* **okok.. back to normal now.. ermm.. where am i?.. ohoh..haha* met up wid nana and ongling ..was waiting for deb's cousin.. *a sucker which deb called him* haha* he really talk NON stop de can.. My goshy~! haha* oh.. den wentta heeren slack.. lookoing at shoes n clothings.. alamak.. cant buy liaoz.. ma dun allow sia.. hee* my clothings too much~! haha* oh.. anyway, in e end we end up at spinelli slacking dere lo.. laughing n ehx.. talking..haha* cindy n wee siang joined us.. yupz! den we talk rubbish la..till i tink abt 8plus den we all go off.. me n nana n nat took bus 65 back.. sweet of nat girlie to pei me till my stop.. she kena bang my sum idiot's fucking bag sia.. 8sayang* see her so tired n sick.. my gosh.. heart pain* HUGZ* oh.. den waited for her bus to come den i go wait for jing lo.. she n her fren were on e way home.. so asked me to wait downstairs .. SWEET Of Jing to buy me a necklace n a card* hee* tell u guys.. my dis year pressie got 3 necklace liaoz.. hee* one is a purple necklace from jerry, one is a dolphin necklace from shi(ya..make me tink of sum1), another is from my beloved Jing'er a 'L' diamond necklace..hee* thanks u guys for the pressie~! I LIKE it alot~! oh.. den wait for her fren come down den ya together go uncle dere pray lo.. den ma so sweet arh..fetch me home..
den ya.. stupid jing n her fren wentta ms yest after kopitiam lo.. asshole lo..
Ciaoz my dear frenz~!~!

ok.. wat i'm goona tell u about my dis whole week is dat.. dere's good n dere's bad la.. the good part is i get to c my frenz.. old n new.. and go sing k for 3 TIMES IN A WEEK!! yesh.. can u believe it? my throat now hurts sia.. thanks jerry for ur compliment! hee* monday went sing k wid my kor dey all.. wed nite wentta sing k wid jing n her sis dey all.. thurs evening wentta sing k wid jerry at cine! haha* so wat do u tink? ok.. quite happy though! hee* i beta update my blog if not my girlies gonna be mad at me! okok.. wed was dat slut's birthday we went to watch house of fury .. haha* kinda late for it but still can make it lo.. was nice after all la.. and nat girlie was thinking dat she's fang fang coz inside the show, gillian is natalie.. haha* only e name hor.. yupz! after dat went home to continue my field work which i got to hand in by today.. was kinda rushy n i tink gods helping me coz its raining.. e weather is cool.. n jing bo pian have to stay at my hse n SLACK! haha* ah boy nearly kena irritated by her sia..ate dinner le..bathe and change le den go to parkway walk ard for awhile den wentta sing k lo..den sing my lungs out sia.. until i out of pitch n tune! haha* was really shagged n all la.. den raining summore u noe.. ok.. was able to eat my ALL TIME FAV CHAWANMUSHI! wahaha.. damn shoik! after dat my mama send me home.. awww* home sweet home* alrite.. today morning met up wid cindy girlie den go sch for e fat annie's lesson lo.. nat was juz behind us sia.. haha* our bitches mind thinking same sia.. haha* ok.. wentta canteen for a few times le lo.. damn shagged n tired.. was laughing madly in e canteen coz of something.. oh mine.. dis is a SIN u noe? haha* we laugh lyk hell lyk no body business sia! damn funny.. only we noe wat's dat la.. haha* okok.. it was our today's topic sia.. haha* yupz.. den yawnz.. went hm to change n all to mit jerry lo.. hee* wenta sing k at cine.. did i repeat it again?haha* oopz.. alrite.. ok... he bought me dis purple necklace.. thanks jerry! we ta bao KFC to k box sia.. haha* funny.. put all inside his bag.. rubbish oso put inside.. sing till 8 lo.. den went home.. lovely SHAN'er msged me to book me on sunday! hee* so sweet of her.. i last year cel my birthday wid her oso.. hee* sweetie pie of mine! *hugz* juz hope my birthday wish will come true la.. hee* i already plan nice nice liaoz..

**to my Ger Gang aka Single company:
I LOVE YOU GIRLIES~! u GIRLS ROX mY WORLD~! My Bitches RUles !! Terrence:: dun pop up out of no where ok?.. haha* *hugz* to u guys~!


**to mY lovely frenz: i love u guys.. n i hope dat u guys will find ur happiness very soon.. and those found happiness liao.. example is terrence n T.K.. . haha.. ermm.. juz be happy la.. haha*

**to jass: hope u find ur happiness soon yeah! as for me, i'll be slowly searching n waitin ba.. but of coz.. my heart will still be wid dat 'sum1'.. hmm.. yupz.. take care o..!

*+*+* I LOVE SINGING!! IT CURES MY HEART abit la *+*+*

alrite.. last nite u guess mux be thinking dat I will be a gd girl go slp early for sch today rite?? haha* NO!! 9plus i went out wid my da sao to parkway KBOX to sing while waiting for my kor n his 2 other siao siao frenz! christopher aka jia wei 'abang' will be leavin geylang soon coz he will be movin hse to hougang sia.. DAMN FAR!! oh mine.. lesser K BOX OUTING wid him liaoz..yupz.. haiz.. will miss him de la* oh.. was singing quite a no. of songs.. but wat makes me suddenly feel so down was when i sang tong hua.. duan dian.. ke qian.. jie kou.. an jing.. bie tai wen rou.. chi xin jue dui.. shou fang kai.. zui shou xi de muo shen ren.. YESH!! All dis.. DIS SONGs makes me wanna becum emotion again sia.. but i keep trying to be happy.. u noe? coz my kor dey all dere.. so i din wanna make them worry abt me.. but its really sucks to control my feelings everyday!!
*anyway.. went hm abt 2+ den too tired to tink of anything den i juz wash up n SLP! but wake up at 635am den slp back den wake up den slp back sia.. dis is nuts! e whole day was so tired n moody.. n still got work to do! My life's SUCKS! I HATE MY LIFE! & by e way.. who gonna cel my birthday wid me????? NO1??? How i hope dat got ppl cel my birthday wid me lo..haiz.. wateva la.. anyway.. waked up to mit nat girlie to eat breakfast lo.. suppose to mit cindy girllie but SHE'S ASLP STILL!! sucha piggy sia.. den met up wid shisi den we wenta mac eat breakfast lo.. ate hotcakes sausage meal.. yupz.. juz feel dat tummy weird weird de.. alot of gas sia.. den is lyk.. hot hot de.. dunno how to describe.. juz feeling v unwell deep down..yupz.. rain n rain.. haiz.. sch sucks.. my day sucks.. every thing sucks.. thanks my girlies for being dere.. guess i really need sum1 to take care of me la.. really waitin sia.. really wondering when my 'the 1' will come into my world! anyway.. took a cab home coz really not feelin v well la.. anyway.. thinkin alot lately.. stressing myself for nothing.. n yes.. my flawless face is back wid mama!! wahaha.. damn fuckin happy.. now my pimples r becumin lesser.. n i'm damn fuckin happy abt it!

**jass:i dunno how i gonna share my probs wid u.. i believe u have lose my sg no. +6596940811 contact me thru dis no in furture.. n ya.. i hope u n ah moon happy always.. erm.. ya.. dats all..

**feeling emptiness in me again
feeling sad all over again
feel the coldness in my eyes..
N i'm sure u get dis rite..
I need u.. i still do..
i think of u.. yes i do..
but wat am i suppose to do
when i saw u walkin away wid her..
neva turning back again..
believe me..
juz for once..
i'll be dere for you..
pls remember to turn back
as i shall stand by behind u to catch u fall..

i'll neva forget (26/02/05)!!

*+*+*+* I JUZ WANNA LIVE *+*+*+*

Hee* today suppose to wake up early for sch sehs.. but in e end slp till skipped my 2 hrs of foong'er's lesson.. hee* rain n stuff sia.. gonna get sick soon.. heaty again! my ass hurts! haha* in sch really slack.. at last saw my girlie cindy liaoz.. coz she was disappeared to thin air since her birthday dat day.. haha* at last la.. haha* yest nite was msging my frenz e 'dat msg' la* haha* all of them kena sia.. damn funny.. den was lyk msgin fabian n stuff.. but b4 dat was msgin a guy abt some stuff.. my gosh.. i was kinda afraid to tell girlie.. coz scared she sad abt it.. (*its our thingY so dun ask abt it!) y muz guys do dat all e time?! can for once dunn hurt us not!! FUCK SIA!! Pls dun make me change my mind set again towards u guys~! oh mine.. haiz.. i juz feel so empty inside.. i need sum1 to be dere for me.. i need a lover.. aiyoh.. but i tink i beta slowly find sia.. *my birthday's coming* but b4 dat.. it sderrick's birthday! haha* ADVANCE BirtHday WiSh For Dis IdioT DerRicK ICe-CreAm SellEr Of ISO Who AlwaYS LoVeS To AiR His aRmPiT N ShakE His HeaD LyK a Dog SehS.. okok.. its a joke alrite.. but dats wat he did in class la.. am i rite nat girlie? hee* okok.. enuff joke of him liaoz.. yupz.. today was kinda sianz.. coz yest my ma was lyk tellin me dat sat(*which most of my frenz wanna cel my bday on) have to go m'sia batu to pray sia.. oh mine.. its good for me.. but i wanna cel my bday sia.. I WAN PRESENT~!~! haha* i despo of present sia!! wondering he will rem my birthday not.. wondering will he wish me not.. haiz... my heads full of u again* Y? Y all dis mux happen to me.. i tot i can forget u.. BUT I CANT~! I juz cant.. i tried to noe more ppl to forget u.. but i still think of u.. its sucks.. e feelin sucks.. u r so far away.. yet so near me..coz u always will be in my heart.. yes u will.. always! JASS.. dis is how i feel till now.. i dunno y.. really.. i wanna try to let u go.. forget abt u.. but i dunno y i juz cant.. tried means n ways to forget.. but e tot of u.. makes me think more.. makes me sad.. makes me wanna cry.. when will i have e last hug.. when will i c u again.. I MISS YOU~! *ARGH* haiz.. i have been trying to act as though i forget u.. aiyoh.. i juz cant la.. really hate myself.. i'm really useless!!

** i'm missing you.. again n again n again...

wentta toa payoh central to buy liang teh drink lo.. den was thinking of gg out after hm.. but too slack le la.. in e end reach hm dun feel lyk gg out liaoz.. haha* yupz.. here i am.. listening to dao dai by jay chou which made a great impact on me coz dis is e song i listen while i crying on e way back to sg.. den chi xin jue dui.. n wu neng wei li.. made me damn sad after hearing tong hua coz dat song is e song dat he give me.. but now he give to dat girl.. yupz* now.. my life is so empty.. full of sadness n tears.. my heart was torn apart again! well.. mayb dats my life.. i have to go through all dis ba.. but wat i hope.. every1 to find their happiness soon! be happy.. (* Mux Xin Fu 'O'*) *wink^o* hope to find mine fast too! i realised dat kenneth's fren not bad sehs.. but i dun tink he'll lyk me .. haha* yupz.. me gonna make more frenz.. not gonna rush things again! *hugz* to my frenz.. n oh..

2 sum1: u noe y i angry wid u ma? its coz u always neh ask me b4 u go touch my things (my fone.. my wallet.. n etc)i noe we r close buds.. but at least respect me in future ok?.. if u need sumthing from me.. u shld tell me instead juz take from e table or wat den u go off.. haiz.. u understand ma? i dun wish dis will actually make our frenship sour de lo.. hope u learn ur mistake ya.. *hugz*

2 my girl (nat):
girlie, dun tink so much ok? i'll be dere for u de.. ur sisters too.. ur frenz too! let's take step by step ok.. let evevrything's nature take its course yeah? *HUGZ* love ya..

tired in e morning.. din go for assembly again.. wentta sch str8 for IT lesson but we skipped it.. n wentta eat breakfast.. den slack for HR coz no teacher.. n den slack again for CBZ.. haha* was lyk slacking e whole day lo.. hah* okok den went home after dat..derrick oso siao siao de lo.. made me laugh lyk siao sia.. haha* anyway.. went hm le rest n slack again.. suppose to mit kenneth at 530 den he called to mit earlier den mit up at 5 + still la coz both late haha* den wentta PS long john eat lo.. Thanks PAL* haha* den walk to Cine lo.. on e way wentta find vivien at OG kose.. haha* aiyoh my pretty girl face got scar sia coz wentta do facial e day b4.. beta take gd care.. n thanks for ur sweet compliment~! hee* happy la me* yupz.. den saw his frenz lo.. all wearing caps sehs.. coz all in army.. haha* me so edxtra.. I NEEDA CAP!! haha* kiddin alrite.. den yupz.. was lyk only nat noes wat i feel abt .. yeah* hahha* shall not talk abt it here.. hee* but its ok la.. yupz* oh.. den ya.. dat idiot yi jian la.. bully me e whole time sehs.. nat girlie.. beta trian him.. haha* oopz! anyway.. after pei them n c them play pool at cine kpool le saw DAT IDIOT SEAHORSE CAN!! oh mY gUshY~! he's Sucks big timey~! haha* okik.. den after dat we wentta suntec by bus to find nat girlie lo.. n dat stupid yi jian * hah* dun mean it la.. nat* hehe* okok.. den c them eat le den wentta buy tix lo.. den walked to ebase dere c c clothings n all.. damn stupid la.. den after dat went back to cinema den saw kenneth again wid his frenz.. haha* CUTE HOCK KEE* ANYWAY.. ermz.. where was i? haha* oh.. den we watched miss congeniality 2 la.. damn funny.. nice show.. den was lyk keep kena by nat la.. stupid dem!! haha* e guy beside me laugh so unnatural can** hah* okok.. den after dat we wentta sunntec fountain dere slack lo.. listen to music.. n all.. den i dunno y tink of him* again.. haiz.. memories of us.. it will always be in my heart!yupz.. in KL la my heart still! haha* okok.. den we took cab to kpitiam dere near e hotel.. coz yi jian got fren have free hotel to chill out for e nite.. yupz.. hee* so we clask at 7-11 den waited for kenneth n his HOCK KEE to cum over lo.. yupz* hee* den yupz.. acc them go kopitiam eat lo.. den saw sum idiot ppl in dere.. yupz.. anyway.. after dat we wentta e hotel lo.. totally slackin away..hee* yupz.. till lyk 3 plus... we was e whole time talking abt ghost stories den nic's fren came.. kena scared by 2 morons lo.. actually 1 morons la..yi jian* haha* den after dat she was talkin abt her bestest fren thingy.. was kinda upset for her.. haiz.. *cheer* yupz.. aftr dat i went home lo by cab.. saw mama downstairs.. so sweet of her.. she afriad dat got guys downstairs by block dunno wanna do wat to me so she n kusie downstairs wait for me.. *HUGZ* mama* hee* have a damn fuckin nice slp sehs.. oh.. by e way.. ah ray in Kl was msgin me in e noon on dat day.. haha* was kinda weird.. but after she say abt *him.. i was lyk.. oh mine.. not agian!! my head was all full of him* again!! haiz.. guess i still like him ba* hmm.. okok.. today later gg to my ex collegues's hse to have buffet coz of her baby la.. hee* gonna have fun dere! hee* Hugz* my girlies.. i hope nat girlie able to find her lively love in * ..ya i noe* HUGZ*

::: Me iN e bus700 on e way to suntec :: 

::: me On sat b4 gg to mit kenneth~ ::: 

::: MIckEy MoUsE :::  

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::: i'm missing u so much.. do u? :::