Sunday-Monday= kor's wedding preparations!

Cleaning up the living room and preparing for tml kor'swedding..after which Followed my ma for lunch at kallang airport hawker and wentta send tape.got home after that kor's 2 fren sebestian n jia wei came over to help n ton.. prepared for the prayers n combing hair ceremony.. ok.. its my first time.. abit blur n funny .. coz my kor had to wear the pyjamas.. and its damn funny.. gold in colour.. and he wear till v high.. look so sua ku.. we were tired.. ended up talking rubbish n watching vcd.. RU HUA show.. haha* slept at 2+ 3am.. outside damn noisy.. abt 4 plus.. the three of them went out for supper.. yaya.. roti prata... idiot.. haha* ya.. already din slp well still needa wake up 6+7 to prepare.. shucks rite.. damn tired.. wore my new brown top.. wentta da sao's hse ta get ang bao.. haha* though not my wedding but i'm happy. ohh.. buffet time.. lotsa realtive came over..

Its a damn long day.. me n ah hoon auntie wentta salon to set our hair.. oHhhh.. nice... i mean mine.. hee* i make up my own.. and every1 complimenting it.. hee* happy* oh.. her husband fetch us to the restaurant. ohhh.. my da sao's pretty.. now i noe y ppl always say that girls esp during wedding will be more pretty den the usual days.. hee* i hope that mine will be a perfect wedding.. *wateva* haha* miss dear so much.. oh.. saw my kor n my da sao walk on the aisle and ya.. i nearly teared.. hmm... weird rite.. da sao stayed with us for like 2yrs+ but y am i tearing arh.. hmm.. i'm really happy for them... *hugS* late ... its really late.. and i'm so tired..yaya.. till like 1 plus den reach home.. and ya.. my heads so itchy.. the hair sprays... the pins.. argh!.. pain n itchy!..

Tues: rest day for me!
lucky i got approved leave.. slept through the whole noon..had a slight migraine.. finally went dear's hse ta do my summary for that idiot report.. miss dear so much.. *mauckieZ*
dear was sweet to take a cab n send me home.. hee* sweetie*

Wed:
wentta school... my hse com juz sucks to the max.. reformat oso no use..
waste of money! *Pissed*

met vynn up for Orchard party world ktv(heeren)!! party world coupons' nice but ehx.. ex.. hee* roger n isaac joined in too..
happy to c them.. quite long neh c both of them le.. for like.. ehx.. -1 mth? hee* after which, walked to Orchardpoint to take bus to bugis for mit up..oh.. and on the way, saw pat & her frenz.. yupz* no change.. but ehx.. happy to c her.. hee* ate at bugis village foodcourt.. sad to hear that 1 of my relative's pass away.. took a bus home.. dear arh.. u mux take good care of health k..

Thurs:

Happy Birthday To VYNN!!

Study study.. sch juz sucks.. wondering y the school got sucha asshole teacher!?! wateva. .did our survey that sugly fugly biatch and other teachers..


haha* its been a busy week for me.. but i still happy abt it.. its nice.. arh... wateva... i'm toking nosense.. tataz

suga dreamz

wat i gotta do ta make u love me?
wat i gotta do ta make u care?

1 day has passed..
another day of misery..
tot i could give u up..
i cant..
i still cried in e cab on e way to sch..
'swollen eyes..heavy hearted..

argued with u thru msg..
but i ended up put my head down n
ask u back..
tot u will give me a surprise by
coming over after work..
i tried to slp.. but i cant..
no appetite..waited for ur msg..
but i was so so wrong..
u went home.. u din wanna mit me..

wat am i suppose to do..
am i juz a useless bitch who
u can happy den keep me..
den u not happy den dump me aside?

i felt like i'm ur used cigerette bud..
i dun wanna feel dis way..
having fever.. was actually 40.1degree..
i drank lotsa water.. not enuff rest..
but it went down ta 39.6..
but my heart hasn't healed yet..
its really torn apart..

cried myself ta sleep juz now..
e more i think of wat happen..
e more i'm feeling depress..
u r treating me colder..
r u gg to be like last time..
leaving me alone suddenly n
left me for another girl?

e tot keeps pondering n wandering in me..
i cried.. how i wish.. i wasn't me at all..

Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain, every time I hear your name

The sun won't shine since you went away
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart, where there once was two
But that's the way it's gotta be,'til I get over you

Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can't escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here

When will this river of tears stop fallin'
Where can I run so I won't feel alone Can't walk away when the pain keeps callin' I've just gotta take it from here on my own
But it's so hard to let go

all i juz wanna u ta do is ta improve n dun always
say without doin anything.. but once again..
i lose...

i lost u ..
i lost myself..
i lost all e battles dat i once won..
i lost....

crying n breakingdown at interchange is
my 1st time.. while searching high n low for u..
but u din give any damn abt me..
i went out of interchange n got myself drenched..
cold n wet.. i tried to control my tears..
but i cant.. i felt e same as i used to..
now... i'm really lost... i dunno wat to do..
i dunno wat i wan.. i'm back with e same me..
the 1 who cries...
the 1 who's sad..
the 1 who dun smile anymore..

thanks for e sweet memories..
i'll neva forget..
but once again...
i cant stop myself from listening to sad songs..
*yan lei zhi dao*

i tried to accept u for who u r..
but ppl ard me givin me pressure..
wat u wan me to do..
well den...
PLS LOCK ME IN DAT DARK CORNER
& NEVA LET ME OUT AGAIN!!
breakdown n cry.. *tiankong*

I didn't mean it When I said I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight I never should've let you go
I didnt know nothing
I was stupid I was foolishI was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself
Cuz' I didn't know you
Cuz' I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everythingI never felt..The feeling that I'm feeling now Now that I don't hear your voice Or even touch and kiss your lips Cause I don't have a choice What I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my sideright here,Cause baby When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe Come back baby please come back We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up Who's gonna take your place
There aint nobody better Oh Oh baby baby We belong together
I can't sleep at night
When you're all on my mind Bobby Womack's on the radio
Singing to me'If you think you're lonely now' Wait a minute
This is too deep, too deep
I gotta change the station So I turn the dial Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
I only think of you
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together But I'm falling apart I'm feeling all out of my element I'm throwing things
Crying Trying to figure out Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song Ain't even half of what I'm feeling inside
I need you Need you back in my life baby
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please come back
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me Till the sun comes up Who's gonna take your place There ain't nobody else baby baby
We belong together

was kinda pissed with my family..
wtf.. now my relatives not comin
out for my abang's wedding..
sick n tired abt dis word called
"family relationship"!

hopin that time could pass faster..
so dat i could get out of dat cage!
i wan to fly.. i wan freedom..

anyway, i had a big tiff with them..
made my migraine worse..
took leave for yest.. coz
i'm really not feeling very well..

darling was so sweet..
took off for dat day to juz acc me..
knowing dat i'll be depress over lotsa things..
*muackiez*
we wentta c doc le den go eat chicken rice..
walk ard.. wentta pasar malam..
den took a bus to tamp.. walk ard.. den went home..
i love u dear..

lately sch's sian.. slacking everywhere..
weather's hot.. n i'm melting very very soon..
i need water!! lotsa it!..
can u bring me to e beach? hee*

my skin has improved alot..
thanks myself for being so patient..
tryin to destroy all [pimples] ..
haha*

i'm missing you..
i cant do anything without you!

yaya.. y our SC tee is black?..its hot u noe?
wateva.. guess u dun understand!

tot everything will be messed up
but yet.. it turn out not bad..
had our sc course today..noe quite a few frenz.
did had fun.. n ya.. i totally forget abt taking pics..
well done guys.. at least something..
T.K saved most part of e games.. haha*

well, lately felt dat i'm being neglected by dear..
quarrelled coz of $$ n small lil things..
i felt like i'm not in dear's world.
i felt so lonely.. Argh.. wateva..

anyway.. wanted to post some pics.. but there's
something wrong wid ma hello.. ya..
gonna wait till my com get fixed..
virus free den posting more pics.. ya?

hope everything will be fine..
muackiez*

i still love you dat much...
i still care..
i still thinking of u..

school was okok.. was kinda pissed with
our OA teacher.. stubborn, cunning..
she juz sux.. all of us hate her..
always thinking she v pretty..v kawaii
being bias.. wanna flunk our project b4 even markin it!
hope she could juz disappear with juz a click!*grinz*

we collected our pierced-out couple ring at P.S..
bought mac n ate it in e bus on e way to bedok..
had real fun in e bus.. dearie was all e while
looking at digi cams.. wondering is it dearie wanna get 1..
hmmm.. anyway, we took another bus to uncle hse..
saw dat fugly FAT biatch .. giving att n all..
thinking dat she's the biggest dere!
yaya.. she e biggest in size! haha*
fugly biatch! wentta tell auntie dey all
dun allow me n dearie to take care of e cash..
coz we will steal!.. MY FOOT! that's all abt gods stuff..
do u think we will? i'm not money freako like her!
say wanna share buy a bday cake for a fren..
we gave e money.. more den enuff to get another small cake..
she din return us e money sommore wentta ask for more!
dis kinda freak shldn't be in dis world! lying to all of us..
breaking ppl's frenship/relationship up!..
taking frenz for granted..use money to buy frenz..
to9 i'm gg down again.. she beta behave or else..
well, u mux be v shock dat i actually asked ah long
n angel come rite? haha* u will be worse if i ask roger
n ah ger n e rest.. includes zoe dey all.. u will CRY MANZ!!
haha*

oh.. saw kelvin at uncle dere.. so coincidence..
talked awhile..den he called girl up..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELVIN!!
haha* long had a tiff with dat fugly biatch..
wateva.. act big la she.. anyway.. went home after prayings..

i'm missing my dearie! love you always..
keep thinking of you..

i tot dat things r slowly changing for beta..
it is.. but everything's juz crashin on me..
i cant handle it.. its juz too much for me..
all of a sudden i felt not like myself..
i wasn't myself at all..
I'M SUFFERING FROM DEPRESSION!!

the quarrells, the promises.. flashbacks..
all negative tots came rushing thru my heads..
i teared while bathing.. i'm scared..
am i gg crazy? .. i guess i am..

our 3rd mth wasn't a good 1.. coz we quarrelled lyk hell..
i'm getting worse.. i'm crazy! y am i being dis way?
wat can i do to stop all dis!? i'm sufferin..
y u always think dat u can do it when u dont do so..
seriously, if 1 day, u neva heard from me ..
dats e day i'm crazy.. n i'll forget u.. forget e whole darn thing!

but i dun wan to let go..my emotions unstable..i need help!!
i need YOU! i tried to hide my weakness inside..
when i'm all alone, i'll shut myself up!
can u be my doctor for life?
can u be my guiding stars?
i dun wish to lose u..
coz i love you too much till i cant lose u anymore..
neva the second time..' never....

' ok..i'm crying.. its just happens.. i noe i'm weak..
but i cant help it..

dear brought me to cafe cartel to cel 3rd mth..
met up wid long dey all.. ate crispy combo..
ate lover's fantasy.. its so sweet to eat with ur love one!
dear bought me a lite blue sleeveless top, a ebase top,
minnie mouse .. wentta watch herbie..its so cute!
wentta meet roger,isaac,eric,long n vyn
for ktv at partyworld.. eric's voice is so cool!
so girlie! damn nice!
headed to maxwell to eat den went home..
juz passed for my both OA n PR ca..
dear bought me a roxy pink wallet n a couple watch as
a well-done gift... i even had shark fin soup too!
so sweet! n we made a new couple pierce-out ring..

i noe its kinda diff coz u have changed ur job..
n its a 8:30 -5+ pm job for 5 days n half day for sat..
i'm trying my best to adapt into this life style!
i noe u wan the best for me, for urself.. for us!
i guess i can.. pls be with me to go thru all this ok?

i'll be fine .. i'll be real fine.. i guess..

Pls love me .. pls dun leave me..
for i noe i cant let u go!
i love you.. i really do..
wateva i do is all for u only..n no1 else..

aishiteru~!